20180107

Who in my life should be acknowledged more? Would I like to acknowledge them for something today?

well, trying to pause or start the timer

Jesus, obviously, but that starts to cause fear. let me not be ashamed. let me live in the Spirit and let Him shine through me in His own way

it seems like such a task. let it go!

love peace hope strength speak through me Lord I love You so.

rings interruptions power strength

love

Brian

answer my real question

thank  you :D

double spacing between words somehow interesting.

i know why it causes fear. He has already overcome it!

grace, peace, the fruits

who else?
brian
challenging me being strong smiling even when he doesn't feel like it redaction
helping me live day to day

next!

"Do the difficult things while they are easy and do the great things while they are small.
Lao Tzu"

"What is the most frustrating habit I have? What should I do to get rid of this habit?"
copy paste issues and happy for shift v
not wanting to write on some of these topics
freewrite redact
breath in getting light headed due to cold
sounds people make when they sneeze or yawn
distracted by good part of peanuts movie :D
ok let's try this:
forgetting Jesus
maybe i should....
will be connecting with Him more; see 21 days of prayer the cross mount dora
will have to ask for no interruptions from friends when I do this
i want to be completely honest but also post this. maybe i should just keep it private. :D every little thought that comes into the brain
as accountability...?

get myself outside myself: social, Jesus

One Hundred Fifty-One

December 5, 2016
Did You Know You’re Contagious?
Sharon Jaynes

Today’s Truth

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! (Philippians 4:4 NIV).

Lord, please keep me contagious for good! :D

Help me to "stem the tide of malice" where it's begun, and to not start something whether I can finish it or not, unless it be from You.

[flat feet and frustration in the airport]

(Started yesterday but did not quite finish. Also posted on 720 since it was still selected. That's why I don't like the new selector, Blogger.)

[typical look of someone as they're doing something (happy, sad, determined, etc.)

"Gretchen had an effervescent sense of joy … wiping toilet seats. It seemed to come from a deep-seated heart of gratitude. And it spilled over to every single woman who left her station.

[How you purpose your attitude and then interact with others can affect them, for good or for bad.]

[A good attitude helps others want to spend more time with you.]

"On the counter rested a tip jar filled to the brim with thanks. But I don’t think the 'tips' were for wiping the germs away from the toilet seats, but for wiping the doldrums away from their hearts and frowns off of their faces. And for some strange reason, I just wanted to give Gretchen a hug. I did. She didn’t mind."

[real service versus just doing a job]

Let’s Pray

God, I am so thankful today. Thank You for eyes that see, ears that hear, lips that speak, legs that walk, and arms that hug. Thank You that I have a roof over my head, shoes on my feet, and food in my pantry. I pray You will set a guard over the door of my mouth so that no grumbling will escape its threshold. Help me be a contagious carrier of gratitude.
In Jesus’ Name,
Amen.

Now It’s Your Turn

Get a piece of paper and write the numbers 1-100 down the left-hand side.
Then write down 10 things you are thankful for by numbers 1-10.
Tuck the list into your Bible and add to the list as things you are grateful for come to
mind.

1. the Holy Trinity

2. family

3. friends

4. life

5. acquaintances

6. strangers

7. 音楽

8. love

9. freedom

10. peace

20170224

Still had people talking to me last night. I'm glad it's good for them, but it is part of why I wake up. I don't really mind so much. It's nice for both of us, I think, just to be able to talk ad lib.

Writing all this is probably improving my mind. That insertion of "ad lib" was pretty accurate.

I remembered as I sat here that there was someone who wanted to spend time with me today. Let's see if I see him. Among that population, there are many who are willing to try. They speak of buying me lunch, etc., though one time, without knowing me, a man asked me to sleep with him without me knowing him. Must have been the false rumors about who I'd slept with that originated from the shelter at which I was staying at the time.

No teeth this morning. I'll probably wait until breakfast. I went back and forth as to whether to use my camera, and as to where to go. I finally decided on IU and biscuits and gravy.

I'm growing tired, and I want to do my Bible study, so I'll (pause?) here for now.

Booking Through Thursday 20170209

This post may not have the requisite 720 words, but it is my daily public journal, so I felt the response most appropriate here.

"What kind of book do you like to curl up with on a snowy day?"

I'm not sure that the weather really affects my reading habits; however, I like to read different things in different locations, with different drinks. Many of these "ideals" likely coincide with what others would say in the same situations.

Locations:
the beach--magazine/light reading
the mountains--intellectual (Is this a made up thing?)
home--nonfic/ref, something I'm comforted with (favorite series, Chicken Soup/inspirational, rare occasion that I'll want a novel/fic)

Drinks:
hot cocoa/snow--comforting, familiar
margarita--cultural
soda--mostly generic in the sense of anything (not specifically pertaining to a specific genre), but again, ties to a location in some circumstances, read: beach

In general, I love reading, especially non-fic/memoirs (this line gets blurred, since I think Harry Potter series/Room are so real in my mind--other good writing), not just for reference. I'll pick up just about anything when I want to read. If it's worth it, keep going. If not (have yet to find too many of those, though some targeted to a different (younger, etc.) audience), give it back to the "Little Free Library" I got it from and begin the search again. :D

20160921

Writing morning pages may be a more difficult habit to get into than doing Bible study every day, even if for different reasons. Nevertheless, I will call on my God to help me persist. As I understand, they will be very helpful.

I would like to decide what to do about Writer's Circle, how to give it more life. (I just thought like a dictationist. ;) ).

The other forms of art, I did not even contribute to. I would like to get a painter marker and jazz up my tray. I say I did not contribute, but I bought supplies (granted, lazy ones, but I wanted to see how they'd work) and actually COMPLETED a project. That should say something.

I still feel that working toward an arbitrary number, even one given structure by an outside source, is false, but I will again do my best and call on God to persist, since it appears to work and since I need something!

Got distracted by email, and what was I looking for?
Also did snooze alarm for singing and dismiss alarm for WC.
Still somewhat fearful of calling Marylhurst.
Remembering what the leader, and the Big Book said about giving God fears and focusing on recovery/helping others. Forgiving others, I suppose, is the way to not worry about what others have done to me. Sounds Biblical. I should find out what they all say. It is so freeing to know that I have a different focus from [resentment, fear, selfishness, and dishonesty].

Good thing to expand yourself as well. Even if you get distracted, you can come back with more if you open up and go out.

What about a "psychic change"? (It's just a brain change, not an ESP reference.) God, my higher power, is helping with that.

What am I doing? I would like to do life, not just work out of desperation, but right now, I am desperate. Whichever issue I'm addressing, I think the part where life is unmanageable is true. Help me to give it over to You, Lord. Thank You!

What place to give tech. I could write on that for eons and probably never finish if I lived that long. I typed a transcription the other day where the life of the interviewed paralleled nearly exactly a life I imagined and could have achieved had I placed a slightly higher stock in tech. It was eerie and inspirational. I don't have to give up here. I can choose to do what I like and then achieve it.

I find myself going back to the 750. I would like to (tried to put have to) type nearly as much as I have already typed once over again.

None of the subjects seem to be sticking today. Maybe it's because I have time. I really want to get out of Tuesday, too. Meh.

The subjects were "right and rare" yesterday (RENT reference). Rocking chairs in multistory buildings over creaky floors lol.

Taking the car apart and putting it back together video with bookmarks and bags numerically labeled.
Being "afraid" people will abuse me and steal my ideas and work versus following the first step in 7 Habits (Covey) of sharing freely and trusting God and the universe to bring it back. Wanting to be rewarded for pursuing something because that fosters the pursuit of other things.

I can tell I'm worried about money today. Please take that, Lord.

If God is not near the top of density, I have issues! (Of course, that might be because Lord, Jesus, etc.)

There is power in the blood!

There is God, then there is me and other people, and then there is music. I am excited about the sheet music I have to play piano, but still ambivalent tending toward negative about the guitar, probably because I consider it a rejection piece. They didn't really care about my piano playing skills, at least it seemed to me.

So many interests. Saving pictures. Archery (came from the blog that appeared after I clicked next blog from mine). Thinking about the style of everything. How fun!

What other fun, positive things can I think about?
I have made good habits (daily self-care) and am making other good habits (changing the way I say things and focusing on God's view).
I have breath, health, life, music, a God who cares, love, power, ability, art, potential, friends (with these same things), etc. (to infinity!).

I have library books. They will help me to do things that I want to do.

I have a flexible schedule so that I can attend CreativeLive's photo week.

I have the ability to consume less-than-healthy things and not die, and I have the ability to say no to them.

What else is recommended for the pages?

A person justifiably got rid of the workbook. I should get another one.

Their lives are not perfect just because they got rid of me, but I should (there's that word) hope for that. I'm not there yet. Lol.

Where is my love? I am focusing on staying stable, but I really want a deep, sustaining love from another human. I know I have that from God, and that is (should be?) enough, but I appreciate romance, etc.

What else will pop into my head until I get there?

Yay, yay. I'm there.

20160920

Life is rich and full. There are so many things to think about, talk about, and do. Where do people get broken?

There are probably many places people get broken. Perhaps I should start with myself, both so that i am not assuming and so that I can have a smaller field on which to focus.

Depression is even too big a category.
Perhaps thinking about one aspect of depression will help. What about if I concentrate on

This will have to be continued later because I must catch the 1PM bus.

20160920

Life is rich and full. There are so many things to think about, talk about, and do. Where do people get broken?

There are probably many places people get broken. Perhaps I should start with myself, both so that i am not assuming and so that I can have a smaller field on which to focus.

Depression is even too big a category.
Perhaps thinking about one aspect of depression will help. What about if I concentrate on

This will have to be continued later because I must catch the 1PM bus.